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So I cooled down, but I'm faaaaar from better. I put half my stuff back up cause it 'isn't fair' to store away art I contributed. To be honest it isn't. Just cause I can't stand it anymore doesn't mean other people and watchers have to counted out. Also considering my Exteral harddrive melted down taking most of that art and whatever garbage of a story I had to share with the world to hell with it, I might as well keep up what I have left, right?
The issues that I had with others have with dealt with (Except a few cause I'm a big fat coward) Most all of it is my own fault anyway because I never addressed when I should have. Since I didn't say anything for this long I don't think they realize how this impacted me aside from holding it in for this long... and I still am holding back.
Instead of drawing on my own time like I said I've drawn nearly nothing since, and when I get inspired it's corrupted by the need to try and impress I even though about joining OCTs again but I don't want to do either of these things. I feel I need to go to artist rehab to learn how to stop trying to base my art on what other people would like and appeal to and just draw from my heart like I used to. What's worst is drawing was a coping mechanism for my anxiety but now all it causes IS anxiety and since I stopped I been getting stress dreams.... I'm a mess and I try not to show it by being all upbeat, and retarded-happy. It's not helping. Once again trying to please everyone f**king doesn't help me.
Right now, I'll be just happy to trying and be able to calm myself down in general, so I don't have a frickin' heart attack!!!
The issues that I had with others have with dealt with (Except a few cause I'm a big fat coward) Most all of it is my own fault anyway because I never addressed when I should have. Since I didn't say anything for this long I don't think they realize how this impacted me aside from holding it in for this long... and I still am holding back.
Instead of drawing on my own time like I said I've drawn nearly nothing since, and when I get inspired it's corrupted by the need to try and impress I even though about joining OCTs again but I don't want to do either of these things. I feel I need to go to artist rehab to learn how to stop trying to base my art on what other people would like and appeal to and just draw from my heart like I used to. What's worst is drawing was a coping mechanism for my anxiety but now all it causes IS anxiety and since I stopped I been getting stress dreams.... I'm a mess and I try not to show it by being all upbeat, and retarded-happy. It's not helping. Once again trying to please everyone f**king doesn't help me.
Right now, I'll be just happy to trying and be able to calm myself down in general, so I don't have a frickin' heart attack!!!
Thank You! For restoring my confendence!
After the slue of art, yeah! I got it back! It didn't just COME back on it's own either. So I just wanna give a heart-filled thank you for what you guys did for me.
~setosgeni (https://www.deviantart.com/setosgeni) & the :iconthefanspov: crew sent me a video of the latest con they visited and in the video was my favorite Voice Actor Scott McNeil, doing Stork's voice (from Storm Hawks) one of my favorite characters. If that wasn't special enough, He made the statement "Your Artwork is Amazing" and I was brought to tears! I can't thank you enough for that! Prepare yourselves cause if I get the money to go visit you, you're all getting vice-love-hugs! >u<
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Sick and tired of bullshit.
Really sick and tired.
I can do art on my own time, the only reason I put my stuff on DA was to have a social net work and make friends but lately I feel like I’m being dicked with and HURT. There’s no point anymore. I’m done for now, whenever I get over this will be when I put stuff up again.
NOPE!
I change my poll and changed my mind. I'll stick to what I know which is Amnesia!
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I really enjoy your artwork and all your effort in the OCT I saw you participate in. Kelcey was definitely one of my favs.
I'm sorry to hear things aren't as bright as you'd like them to be. I think all artists can relate to just not feeling your own work when your heads not in the right space for it. I certainly hope once the figurative smoke clears you'll be back stronger than ever. 'Till then, I'll definitely be missing your art.
I'm sorry to hear things aren't as bright as you'd like them to be. I think all artists can relate to just not feeling your own work when your heads not in the right space for it. I certainly hope once the figurative smoke clears you'll be back stronger than ever. 'Till then, I'll definitely be missing your art.